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I'm an agnostic-atheist now. I don't know whether or not there is some "intelligence" that's responsible for the creation of the universe, but I'm not convinced by any of the creation theories put out by any religions. Whatever this intelligence may be, I don't think it made the human race in its image, nor do I think it cares about whether I drink tea. - Brian's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/bwilliams8492/

Why don't I leave the mormon church alone? Because there are people I love still in it. I watch them spend their free time and money on what I consider a greedy corporation, pursuing ordinances that I'm convinced are meaningless and I want to free them from the shackles they don't even know they have on. - Brian's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/bwilliams8492/

I hated myself a lot more back when I was mormon. I had many self-esteem issues thanks to my feelings of inadequacy when it came to spiritual matters. I've come to terms with the church's affect on my formative years, and consider myself to be "post-mormon" now. I've learned to love myself, but the lack of a mormon "tribe" to be there and help out, combined with a rather small family has made an already lonely life harder, but I wouldn't take it back for anything. - Brian's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/bwilliams8492/

Having a faith crisis has also completely changed how I view all things that enter my life. I doubt everything, and critically consider any new opportunities that arise. Having something whose truth I held so strongly be destroyed was one of the most painful things I've ever had to go through, and I highly recommend it to everyone. - Brian's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/bwilliams8492/

Did Joseph Smith really divinely receive and translate the Book of Mormon, or did he get the idea from elsewhere? In particular, finding out the similarities between Book of Mormon place names and modern New England place names, and also discovering the View of the Hebrews, cemented the idea in my mind that the Book of Mormon isn't original. Of all things, it was the discovery of the small African island nation of Comoros (formerly Camorah) and its capital city of Moroni that broke my shelf. - Brian's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/bwilliams8492/

I was always a shitty mormon; told the Bishop I didn't masturbate even though I did. Didn't attend the Boy Scouts. Never went on any treks, never visited the temple, never got my patriarchal blessing. I suppose it was this juvenile feeling of not having a place to belong that made discovering the CES Letter such an easy thing for me. I've always believed in Occam's Razor; the simplest answer is likely the correct one. - Brian's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/bwilliams8492/

A single mother and her only child stand out in a church full of nuclear families with multiple kids. At the same time, our mormon status distanced us from our fellow Filipinos. I had a year or two to look forward to being baptized, and went on to receive the Aaronic and Melchezidek Priesthoods. I planned to go on a mission and later attend university at BYU, but neither of those panned out due to financial troubles. I never felt like I truly belonged anywhere. - Brian's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/bwilliams8492/

I like playing the piano and making music. I'm an engineer and a realist. My parents split up when I was quite young. Searching for a father figure for me, my mom converted to the church when I was 6. I was a Mormon. - Brian's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/bwilliams8492/

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We love life and are ok not having all the answers. We feel so lucky to have discovered the truth related to mormonism, and are ok not knowing what lies ahead. Nobody does. As my favorite beer maker (Kona) says on its can , "One life, right?" We're making the most of the life we have left.- Larry's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/larry-camp/

I should add that in September of 2018, our second child Dusty passed away at 31 from a spontaneous dissection of the right iliac artery. We were (and still are) devastated. We no longer believe in god, but we hope we will see our son again. I have a podcast, Nobody Knows Your Story where my guest shares their life stories. Ive had quite a variety of guests share their stories which has been very therapeutic.- Larry's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/larry-camp/

We relocated from Hawaii to AZ just before leaving mormonism. But, we didn't feel comfortable around our former church friends and decided to move back to UT where we hadn't lived since 1983. It's kinda funny moving to cult central after making our escape. We ended up in the St George area, and discovered a large post Mormon community. We have developed several "real" friendships that are based on things other than religion. We love it here!- Larry's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/larry-camp/

I immediately went to the internet, found several articles, and the Mormon stories podcast. I was out in 4 weeks. I mentioned the podcast to my wife, she listened and asked for a few books like "No Man Knows My History". We resigned in June of 2017. We've never been happier. Facts over faith!- Larry's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/larry-camp/

The next Sunday, sitting in Sacrament meeting, I went to lds.org and eventually found the essays. I read the first vision essay, saw that the 1832 account was the only one in Joseph's handwriting, and that it was vastly different than the 1838 version I had been taught and that I had taught as a missionary. I clearly remember thinking, "Well fuck me". This was January of 2017.- Larry's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/larry-camp/

In 2016, our daughter came home from BYU-H for Christmas break. She asked to speak to us, started crying and asked what we knew about the church essays. We had never heard of them. She said they had been studying them in her religion class, and what they said was very different than what we were told growing up. She said she Googled lots of factual mormon history and no longer believed. Pretty shocking.- Larry's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/larry-camp/

I had shelf items that began on my mission. You see, right before I left, I received a blessing and was told my family would be protected while I was away. About a year in, my younger brother Jeff broke his neck on a trampoline and was rendered a quadriplegic. He died at 28 due in part to his accident. Huh, what about the promise in the blessing? Yeah, this is where my shelf began to bow.- Larry's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/larry-camp/

I believed the church was true but NEVER said I knew it was. Why? Because I never had a prayer answered, and I specifically asked if it was true.- Larry's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/larry-camp/

Aloha, I'm Larry. I was born into the religion of my parents, Mormon. I grew up in Southern California and really didn't notice I was that different until Jr High. I should mention my parents were pretty normal. On Sunday we went to church, but we changed out of our Sunday clothes, watched TV, listened to music and could have friends over. I love my wife, my kids, Hawaii, the outdoors, softball and I was a Mormon.- Larry's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/larry-camp/

This is a spotlight on a profile shared at wasmormon.org. These are just the highlights, so please find the full story at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/. There are stories of Mormon faith journeys contributed by hundreds of users like you. Come check them out and consider sharing your own story at wasmormon.org!

"I've had periods of silence with family members that lasted literal years. When I've tried to be a support person or help within my family, I've been avoided, I'm certain, because I'm "not a faithful person." I've lost all ability to be of service or even a source of comfort or knowledge, in my family. Not all family members feel this way, but enough that it makes being around them difficult. It's grief and loss, primarily, but also anger and frustration at being judged harshly for doing something that for me, was so personally positive and necessary. I felt like I followed the truth, and my family would have preferred I stayed, dishonestly, in the lie. It's disappointing to see your family as not having the bravery to be people of integrity and honesty, too. I'm not a perfect person, by any means, but the alienation I have received has no explanation other than my leaving the church."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/

"Leaving a cult can be traumatizing as people lose everything they have and know, but I, fortunately, am VERY happy. I view myself as a human. I'm capable of great good and great stupidity simultaneously, and nobody gets credit for my actions but me, and me alone. The good I do isn't God. It's me. The crap I do isn't Satan. It's the basic human condition, which is beautiful in its variability. Mistakes are not damning. Mistakes are just that, and they're easy to let go of. I no longer walk through a world of strangers, but a world of equals. I didn't know how scared I was of people outside the church until I wasn't afraid anymore, until I saw myself for what I was - truly one of them. The world is full of amazing, AMAZING good people who are happy and free."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/

"It took me years to stop being "angry" and accept that just LEAVING the church already might actually give me freedom and joy. It was scary. Finally, after years of grumping about EVERYTHING, I discovered I was pregnant with a little girl. My entire family resigned the following week. Somehow I had been able to justify and juggle the thought of raising sons in the church, but discovering that I would have a daughter made me see that future as impossible. My daughter deserved more than I had received. My daughter deserved to see herself as capable of anything. My daughter deserved to have happiness and feel confident and beautiful in all her dreams and ambitions. She deserved to see herself as a force for good. She deserved to see herself as incredibly strong, solely capable, and a leader if she wanted to. She wasn't inherently a temptation, or a "mother" before she'd even had a chance to become a woman. Obviously, leaving Mormonism involved SO MUCH MORE, but for me, it was being damned for being female. Mormonism is damnation to women."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/

"I was a raging feminist who complained about YM/YW activity inconsistencies and attitudes from the beginning. When I went to University I complained about sexism again, and realized how useless I felt as a woman in the church. When I went on a mission, I saw the church as cruel in the way they treated their missionaries and viewed their investigators as numbers. When I got married, I realized God was sexist. It took me YEARS to accept that Mormon God was sexist. Eventually I just convinced myself that that was the church, and it would catch up someday. It took me a couple years of reading history, and knowing the dark truths about Joseph Smith to realize I didn't believe in him, and that being a part of the Mormon community wasn't worth sacrificing my integrity for. It took YEARS. And then it took about one minute."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/

"For me it was also reading family history records - seeing how my ancestors were AVID treasure diggers, and how they adored Joseph Smith for his work with them - sacrificing the black dog for its blood, etc, in treasure rituals. It was looking at the murders that took place in Missouri, and recognizing that the Mormons were NOT the victims. It was in looking at the murders that happened in Utah, and empathizing with the women who were brought there under the illusion that polygamy didn't actually take place - only to catch them in the practice through their manipulations. I was misled from my earliest childhood to see the Mormons as completely innocent victims."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/

"In studying the history of the church, I found so many stories, so many alternate tellings, so many differences from FAITHFUL members, that I realized I had been deliberately misled. It's knowing that there were other First Vision accounts that varied SIGNIFICANTLY from the one traditionally taught. You can't tell me you'd see God the Father AND Jesus Christ and forget to mention it on more than one occasion. The fact that alternate accounts were literally hidden away in a safe by the prophet says they knew they were hiding something faith-shaking. It was in learning about Joseph's MANY adulterous encounters. It was realizing that Joseph being tarred and feathered was only because the doctor had a change of heart last minute and didn't castrate him, for his alleged crimes against another man's sister. It was reading the first-hand accounts from WOMEN who told of their encounters with the prophet, and their introduction to polygamy. It became apparent, to this ex-social worker, that Joseph Smith was a sexual predator, in MANY disturbing cases."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/

"I started an even deeper dive into gender inequality in the church - polygamy, priesthood, abuse, lies, betrayal, etc, etc, ETC, ETC. The doctrine of a Heavenly Mother broke my heart, though it didn't make me leave. I realized that not only did the Church recognize we had a Mother, they simultaneously commanded us not to talk to her, talk ABOUT her, or even tell us more about her. I realized my own divine destiny was like Her own - doomed to silence and playing eternal second fiddle."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/

"I was a rigid, rigid judgmental bitch. And I was SO angry. I've always been a strong, opinionated personality, intent on changing the world. I am ready to move mountains single-handedly if necessary. Being Mormon somehow managed to make that energy a bad thing. As a woman, I was "supposed" to be kind, sweet, and loving. I was supposed to make babies and be a homemaker, and I was "supposed" to be happy doing just that. Only that. And that was infuriating. So, this rigid, angry bitch got married, and started having children. Multiple children later, I realized I resented my husband. He had done nothing wrong, but he also had zero religious "ambition." He didn't want to be an apostle or anything! And subsequently, that meant I would never move mountains for my God, which was the most important thing I could ever be asked to do. As his wife, I would never have that opportunity."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/

"I was born and raised in Salt Lake City, Utah. I was a Laurel President. I refused to date until I was 16. I went to a BYU, served an LDS mission in Toronto Canada, and have only ever kissed one man in my entire life - my husband. I am a mother, a historical sites hunter, a writer, and I was a mormon."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/

Alan Was a Mormon, an Ex-Mormon Profile Spotlight

Meet Adam, born and raised in Las Vegas, Nevada, with a rich heritage rooted in polygamist pioneers and a father who converted to Mormonism. Adam’s upbringing was steeped in church activities, culminating in a mission to Ecuador. Despite his deep involvement in the church, Adam struggled with historical inconsistencies and the lack of evidence supporting …

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"In late 2015 I was talking to a fellow soldier during our monthly national guard assignment. He was expressing concern with a new policy excluding children of LGBT members from becoming members. It hadn’t really bothered me prior since no one I knew was affected. He had a family member that had been closeted and married to a female trying to start a family. He came out and got divorced and started a relationship with another man but continued to live the faith as much as possible. When my friend told me the story of how his family member would not be permitted to baptize their children it put a face to the abusive nature of the policy." - Alan's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/alan/

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