Hi! I’m Noal
I believed it all to be accepted and loved. It was all a lie. I was a mormon.
About me
I was born into and raised LDS. My biological family gave me the standard middle class upbringing with many happy memories and with many nightmares. Inside me I knew who I was but I lived a lie for 30 years just to make everyone else happy. I did everything I could to be loved and accepted by my parents, family and the Church. I was Baptized, Priesthood, Seminary Council, Eagle Scout, Endowments, Mission, Married in the temple, College including a Masters degree, 3 incredible and beautiful children, many callings and service projects. I gave all I was able to give. And when I was finally exhausted of hiding and pretending, when I was full of all of the lies and abuse, I had to make a decision. I could run or I could continue to live and try to be the best person / father possible. I chose to live. While I was free from hiding and able to live my true life, everything turned away from me.
I was never perfect. I made a lot of mistakes. I’ve paid a lot of dues. I’ve lost everything and then some. Every mistake I’ve have made was used to learn and become who I am. But the biggest lessons I’ve learned in life have taught me that everything in this existence is about money and control. Especially in the LDS Church.
Life is very different now. I am married to my wonderful husband and we have two incredible dogs. I have learned to love me. I have been at the bottom many times. I have grown to the person that has lived a true and authentic life. One which has freely given me true unconditional love. I am honored and humbled by it all.
On my shelf
On the Mormon Spectrum
# Why I left More stories of 'Why I left' the Mormon church
While I will write more detail later, I left the Mormon, Church of JC of LDS because all of the lies, abuse, cover up, dishonesty and deceit. All wrapped in a pretty bow using religion and fear and greed to control people. I’ve always had questions about the gospel and the unlimited and uncontrolled religions power over people. But it came down to the simple fact that when I needed someone the most, everyone turned on me. It was confirmed in me that nothing good comes from religion. And all the lies became clear.