Hi!
I was a mormon.
About me
I grew up in the church and was always told it was true. I very distinctly remember being told many times that "no matter what, the church is still true." I even remember when I "got my own testimony." It was in an outdoor activity that also aligned with how I connect spiritually in grounding exercises.
I served a mission and got married in the temple and have done most of the right things all my life(outside of some "sins" that I have felt same and guilt about for many years.)
I was even a counselor in the bishopric. I have felt less and less spiritual over the past few years when I Mormon chapels and temples. So much so that when I was sitting in a temple dedication earlier this year, I didn't feel anything spiritual and was surprised about that.
I feel spiritual in many aspects of my life and I love connecting with those things. I am sick of the church, it's convoluted past, the drama bullshit, and the constant striving to be seen as _______.
On my shelf
On the Mormon Spectrum
# Why I left More stories of 'Why I left' the Mormon church
I stoped "doubting my doubts" and actually started trying to get real answers, both spiritual and through different sources, both in and out of the church. That also led me to explore how, when, and where I feel positive spiritual confirmations, validations, and actual self love.
I am not ready to put my name to this and I hope I don't get judged because of that. I did want to write this all down and explore at least writing it out.