Hi, I'm Ludwig
I was a mormon. Enjoy traveling, beach sports.
Converted in 1998. Married in the temple in 2004.
As I was assigned to the Spanish Branch as a Second Counselor, 2013 started finding out details that I never heard of before. This wealth of new information about the shady church beginnings and practices kept coming (thank you internet!). In a moment of spontaneous and mental lapse (to try to make others happy) decided to move from gorgeous San Diego to Salt Lake City (There I came across more information :: CES Letter, and met many going through a collapse of their faith)..Realized the monumental mistake of moving to Utah, where if you are not a trumper and a mormon, you do not belong (and even supposed family will remind you of that at every opportunity).
December 2021, I stopped going to church after tithing settlement meeting and heated discussion with demanding bishop. After tense meeting with counselors and my wife (ex now), they immediately released me from my calling. I stopped going to church because I got ignored and experienced a very awkward and unfriendly atmosphere after that (Not paying that 10% and questioning makes you "unlikeable"). I explained to my daughters why dad was not going to church anymore. That was the last discussion as a family..
I was marginalized by "church friends" and by extended "family". My side of the family are not members so they became my support system). I came back home..
On my shelf
On the Mormon Spectrum
# Why I left More stories of 'Why I left' the Mormon church
The racist behavior and malicious leanings of many members in Utah made me question my belief in the "religion" and God. How could a God just sit there and watch all the injustice, racism, and misleading information (done on its name) and do nothing? Discussions about those topics went nowhere and many just provided mental gymnastics. Those apologists puzzled me..They made me realize that "truth" was never the goal.
I no longer believe in god, and finally found peace.