Ella Was a Mormon, an Exmormon Profile Spotlight

Ella bravely considered the scary question. “What if the church isn’t true?” In the end, everything makes more sense once we consider that conclusion.

I finally had the thought; What if it isn't true? I'd read the gospel topics essays when they came out. I'd served a mission. I'd seen miracles and felt the gift of tongues. But suddenly I realized that nothing that I truly and completely believed was exclusive to the LDS church. I stepped back and started examining my faith from an objective perspective. What did I truly believe, and why? What did the church teach? — I finally had the thought; What if it isn’t true? I’d read the gospel topics essays when they came out. I’d served a mission. I’d seen miracles and felt the gift of tongues. But suddenly I realized that nothing that I truly and completely believed was exclusive to the LDS church. I stepped back and started examining my faith from an objective perspective. What did I truly believe, and why? What did the church teach?
Eventually, I allowed myself to research historical problems with the church and interact with other former believers. In this community, I have found clarity, reason, love, support, and happiness. I feel free. I’m living the way that makes me happy, and in a way that allows me to love other people without judgment or ulterior motive.. – Ella

Eventually, I allowed myself to research historical problems with the church and interact with other former believers. In this community, I have found clarity, reason, love, support, and happiness. I feel free. I'm living the way that makes me happy, and in a way that allows me to love other people without judgment or ulterior motive. — I finally had the thought; What if it isn’t true? I’d read the gospel topics essays when they came out. I’d served a mission. I’d seen miracles and felt the gift of tongues. But suddenly I realized that nothing that I truly and completely believed was exclusive to the LDS church. I stepped back and started examining my faith from an objective perspective. What did I truly believe, and why? What did the church teach?
Eventually, I allowed myself to research historical problems with the church and interact with other former believers. In this community, I have found clarity, reason, love, support, and happiness. I feel free. I’m living the way that makes me happy, and in a way that allows me to love other people without judgment or ulterior motive.. – Ella

“I finally had the thought; What if it isn’t true? I’d read the gospel topics essays when they came out. I’d served a mission. I’d seen miracles and felt the gift of tongues. But suddenly I realized that nothing that I truly and completely believed was exclusive to the LDS church. I stepped back and started examining my faith from an objective perspective. What did I truly believe, and why? What did the church teach?
Eventually, I allowed myself to research historical problems with the church and interact with other former believers. In this community, I have found clarity, reason, love, support, and happiness. I feel free. I’m living the way that makes me happy, and in a way that allows me to love other people without judgment or ulterior motive.”
Ella

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