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"Our leaders have the best intentions, but sometimes we make mistakes." M Russell Ballard, LDS Apostle 2015
“I know sometimes we are confronted by people of our own religion, people who are discouraged or who have a lot of unanswered questions or doubts in their hearts. It’s normal to have questions. I have them too. But I have no doubts.” - Sister Rosana Soares
“We never got into arguments about who was right or wrong... It was easy for us to know when their questions were sincere” - Sister Rosana Soares
“Having questions can be a positive thing — after all, the gospel restoration began with a young man’s question. Oftentimes, people spend a lot of time accessing information from dubious sources and forget to bring light to their mind and heart through the Spirit of the Lord. In so doing, they may create a spiritual and emotional imbalance in themselves” - Elder Ulisses Soares
"With time, introspection, and with the love and advice of wonderful people in my life, my life has taken on beautiful new meaning and urgency. My commitment to being a good person and helping make the world a better place, a commitment that so many members of the church share, has blossomed outside of the stultified confines of the church. It turns out there is a whole beautiful world outside of the church and I am grateful to be finding it. I don’t think I would be where I am now without the beautiful things I have learned from the LGBTQ+ community and for that I will be forever grateful!" - Patrick | https://wasmormon.org/profile/pdbrandt/
"I gladly sacrificed to live the teachings of the church because I had been taught all my life that Jesus Christ is alive and that he personally leads the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and no other church on Earth. I believed that Joseph Smith talked to God face to face, that he translated the Book of Mormon, and that he lived and died as God’s chosen servant incapable of leading anyone astray. I believed that current leaders of the church are similarly connected to God and incapable of leading anyone astray." - Patrick | https://wasmormon.org/profile/pdbrandt/
"When my search for truth caused a faith crisis, my conscience demanded that I leave the church. Leaving the church was incredibly hard and scary. At times I found myself wishing I were dead, yet I had a new horror of death. I temporarily lost all hope and meaning in my life. I grieved the loss of everything I thought was constant and eternal. I felt angry. I felt stupid. I felt duped. I wondered how much of my life had been a waste of time. I wondered what harm I had done to others on my mission, in my family, among my acquaintances. Though the process was difficult and painful, I have found peace and fullfillment as an ex-mormon that I never had while in the church." - Patrick | https://wasmormon.org/profile/pdbrandt/
Patrick's "I was a Mormon" Story | https://wasmormon.org/profile/pdbrandt/
"So what happened? I was trying to understand what I as the father of an LGBTQ child, should be teaching my family about what it means to be a gay child of God. The church teaches that gay people sin if they act on any desires that are not heterosexual. LGBTQ people who can not or will not conform to heterosexual norms are going against God’s plan for them. The only acceptable life for a gay person, according to the church, is lifelong and complete celibacy – they can not act on love, they can not be who they feel they are, they must always be on guard against intimacy in any meaningful relationship." - Patrick | https://wasmormon.org/profile/pdbrandt/
"The fact is, the church withholds the whole truth in most if not all corners of its history. It promotes half-truths that serve its agenda, and it uses a mix of beautiful promises, deception, and fear to keep people indoctrinated. Since the beginning of the church, the church’s doctrines have done incalculable harm to the most vulnerable members of society." - Patrick | https://wasmormon.org/profile/pdbrandt/
"For decades I set aside all doubts, concerns, and questions that arose to challenge my faith, believing that leaders of the church knew better than I did what was right for me and my family. I believed, because I was told so, that the good feelings I felt when contemplating on the beautiful promises of the church were evidence from God that everything I was taught is true." - Patrick | https://wasmormon.org/profile/pdbrandt/
"That is when I realized why the church vehemently warns members about searching for truth outside of church sources. Under even minimal scrutiny, all of the church’s foundational truth claims crumble. There is easily verifiable evidence that the Book of Mormon is not an ancient text, that Joseph Smith could not translate ancient texts like he claimed, that Joseph Smith led a life of secrecy and deception, that subsequent prophets do not talk with God, and that Jesus Christ is not leading this church. How many of the church’s truth claims need to be disproven to show that the Church is not what it claims to be?" - Patrick | https://wasmormon.org/profile/pdbrandt/
"Despite my life long indoctrination, I knew this dogma was just wrong through and through. A historical analysis of the church’s position made it clear that they have been wrong for a long time on this and many other social issues. When I finally admitted that the church simply was wrong about many issues, a light started to shine through the cognitive dissonance and thought stopping walls I had built to protect my testimony of the church. I gave myself permission to study all sides and listen to all voices, for and against the church." - Patrick | https://wasmormon.org/profile/pdbrandt/
"I grew up in a devout LDS family, served a mission, and spent 45 years as a believing member of the church. My faith defined every decision of my life. I dutifully gave 1/10 of any money I ever earned to the church. I willingly made a promise to God that I would give all my time, effort, and anything God asked of me through his church leaders, to build up his kingdom on Earth. I did anything asked of me in the church. I had more than one ongoing responsibility in the church and devoted more than a dozen hours per week to church responsibilities. I was a Mormon." - Patrick | https://wasmormon.org/profile/pdbrandt/
"The church does not become involved in politics." - Gordon B. Hinckley on Larry King Live
"When our people came west they permitted [polygamy] on a restricted scale... It was a very limited practice; carefully safeguarded. I condemn it, yes, as a practice, because I think it is not doctrinal." - President Gordon B Hinckley on Larry King Live
When [polygamy] is mentioned, when you hear the word, you think Mormon, right?
"You do it mistakenly. They have no connection with us whatever. They don’t belong to the church. There are actually no Mormon fundamentalists." - Gordon B Hinckley on Larry King Live
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"God is at the helm. Never doubt it." - President Gordon B Hinckley
"I collected thousands of stories of people (as adults) who were harmed while they were kids and anywhere from suicide to physical sexual abuse and then to psychological sexual abuse and there are just all kinds of horrible consequences that have come out of these interviews. To raise awareness these interviews and stories are all shared at protectldschildren.org." - Sam Young's "I was a Mormon" | wasmormon.org
"I was told by my local leaders to walk away from the cause. But I did not, to bring attention to this point, I staged a hunger strike for 23 days with no response from church leadership." - Sam Young's "I was a Mormon" | wasmormon.org
"I found out that my daughter, when she was 12 years old, was asked sexually explicit questions behind the closed doors of a bishop. This introduced her to pornography, and introduced her to masturbation. I had no idea this happened until 10 years after she left the young women's program." - Sam Young's "I was a Mormon" | wasmormon.org
"Since being excommunicated, I'm no longer a member of the church. I've found out so many other issues with the church and I can honestly say I'm happier now than I was when I was all in." - Sam Young's "I was a Mormon" | wasmormon.org
"I served a mission to Guatemala and El Salvador. Married in the temple. Raised 6 children in the church. Have actively served in many callings. Served as Bishop. Until I was excommunicated, I was a Mormon." - Sam Young's "I was a Mormon" | wasmormon.org
"That got me very upset to hear this was done to my child! Then I found out it happened to three more but my children. So four out of my six children were asked sexual explicit questions behind a closed door. I knew, everybody in the world knows that's wrong, dead wrong, except members of our church. I believe that the Apostles even know that it's dead wrong." - Sam Young's "I was a Mormon" | wasmormon.org
"After a series of events, I was disciplined by the church and then excommunicated from the church for speaking out against church policy and leaders, which made me an apostate. The disciplinary council often mentioned protecting the good name of the church, but I was more concerned with protecting children." - Sam Young's "I was a Mormon" | wasmormon.org
Sam Young's "I was a Mormon" | https://wasmormon.org/profile/sam-young/ | wasmormon.org
"I launched a crusade to get this changed in our church. I was very naive I thought it would be an easy change to make. I subsequently found out that this has happened to countless people. It's a very very common practice in our church to ask sexually explicit questions and it's mandated you take kids behind closed doors." - Sam Young's "I was a Mormon" | wasmormon.org
This turn of the century family portrait was taken close to the time Joseph F. Smith succeeded Lorenzo Snow as president of the LDS Church in October 1901. Besides Levira, with whom he had no children, Smith had five other wives and forty-eight children. His wives are (L to R seated by Smith): Mary Taylor Schwartz (married, 1884, seven children); Edna Lambson (married 1871, ten children); Julina Lambson (married 1866, thirteen children, including Joseph Fielding Smith—top row, center); Sarah Ellen Richards (married 1868, eleven children); Alice Ann Kimball (married 1883, seven children); circa 1904
You can't judge Joseph Smith by modern standards. People thought differently back then. How people judged him back then: they killed him.
"If we remove ourselves from the light of the gospel, our own light begins to dim—not in a day or a week but gradually over time—until we look back and can’t quite understand why we had ever believed the gospel was true. Our previous knowledge might even seem foolish to us because what once was so clear has again become blurred, hazy, and distant." - Elder Dieter F Uchtdorf
"When I first looked upon him I was afraid, but the fear soon left me. He called me by name and said unto me that he was a messenger sent from the presence of God to me and that his name was Nephi/Moroni." History, 1838–1856, Volume A-1, “Manuscript History of the Church” Joseph Smith Papers Project vs Joseph Smith History 1:32-33, Canonized Extracts from the History of Joseph Smith, the Prophet
"his name was Nephi <*Moroni>. <*Evidently a clerical error; see D&C 50:2; 106:20; also Elder’s Journal Vol. 1; Should read Moroni.>" "Insertions by unidentified scribe; second inserted at the bottom of page 5." Manuscript for History of the Church. Church Historian Albert Carrington changed “Nephi” to “Moroni”, probably in 1871
"He called me by name and said unto me that he was a messenger sent from the presence of God to me and that his name was Nephi." - Manuscript for History of the Church, The Joseph Smith Papers
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"I suppose the Church would be perfect only if it were run by perfect beings. God is perfect, and His doctrine is pure. But He works through us—His imperfect children—and imperfect people make mistakes." - Dieter F. Uchtdorf, 2013
"To be perfectly frank, there have been times when members or leaders in the Church have simply made mistakes. There may have been things said or done that were not in harmony with our values, principles, or doctrine." - Dieter F. Uchtdorf, 2013
“Sometimes there is a difference of opinion as to what the “facts” really mean. A question that creates doubt in some can, after careful investigation, build faith in others.” - Dieter F. Uchtdorf, 2013
“Some struggle with unanswered questions about things that have been done or said in the past. We openly acknowledge that in Church history — along with an uninterrupted line of inspired, honorable, and divine events — there have been some things said and done that could cause people to question.” - Dieter F. Uchtdorf, 2013
“It’s natural to have questions... First doubt your doubts before you doubt your faith. We must never allow doubt to hold us prisoner.” - Dieter F. Uchtdorf, 2013
"First doubt your doubts before you doubt your faith" - Elder Dieter F. Uchtdorf, 2013
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