I feel I have been lied to and feel deeply betrayed and hurt by the church. Confronting these emotions caused intense grief and heartache. I had to grieve the loss of my former life and culture and my identity as a member. I felt awful knowing I disappointed my family and how my choices impact their belief system about the eternal family. I struggled feeling like I will be judged and disrespected by the people I love.
The church prevented me from living the life I wanted for myself and accepting the reality of that filled me with anger. I felt much of my life was has been stolen from me. Understanding and accepting all of this is extremely painful.