Hi, I'm Dr. Neil
I was a mormon. Until I used my research skills to really look into what I had been taught all my life.
I grew up mostly in Utah. Did the full mormon thing all the way thru, 100%, no questions. Served a mission in Tennessee and Arkansas. Came home, got married, got a PharmD, had kids. I did all the "right" things I was supposed to do. But I found I was not happy. I didn't "feel the spirit" like I am supposed too. Thats when I went really searching.
# Why I left More stories of 'Why I left' the Mormon church
Why I left. There is not a simple answer to that. But that is what I was looking for, answers.
In early 2017 I started my “journey” out of the church. It started slow, with just questions. Then it snowballed.
At the time of all of this, I was married with 3 kids. My wife wanted nothing to do with any of the things I was learning, nothing to do with the questions I was asking.
As it all did come apart over the course of a few months, I went from full mormon to, “physically in, mentally out,” to no longer wearing garments, to no longer participating at all. By May, I was basically out. My wife and kids (who were young enough they didn’t understand) were the only ones in my family who “knew.” In July we would be going on a camping trip with my family, who would catch on something was different. It was at that point I thought that I would write my own letter to explain to them my journey.
At the time I started a blog that I hate to admit, but I have all but abandoned at this point. At the time I found it really soothing to have a place I could type it all out and have a place to vent. If you care, the blog is at nowlookingforward.blogspot.com/ but again, I haven’t kept up with it at all.
The letter I wrote to my family is there on the blog (nowlookingforward.blogspot.com/2017/07/…) as well as other things I kept working on as time went on. The letter though is where I really went into the thick of it. Really researching and trying to find out why things didn’t add up in the church. It ended up being over 40 pages. But that is the best place to find my full exit story.