Hello, I'm toymaker!

I suffered immense trauma growing up. In the early 70s in the UK when a judge sentenced my psychopathic mother (duly diagnosed) to 18 months in prison for the murder of her daughter. That's the start of my journey through the LDS church. I was four years old. I saw the entire thing happen. Pretty traumatic stuff. But even that event did not compare with the mental trauma I experienced later. My mother systematically pulled my psyche apart. It was fun for her. She was deeply involved with the LDS church. Then she literally made me disappear, by kicking me out of the home and into the Welsh children's home system. I was sent to North Wales as part of the massive abuse scandal in the 1980s. The thing that always bothered me was that the church knew about the abuse at home and when I disappeared? They turned a blind eye. Years later I would learn of so many abuses of power by the church, their lying to us, the manipulation and controlling behavior. It got to the point that all that true evidence built up to a point that I could no longer believe in their assertions. And so I left. That was the most devistating thing I've ever done, but I believe now I can properly heal.