Hi, I'm SupaZT
I'm the happiest I've ever been. I'm grateful for knowledge and truth. I was a mormon.
Short but to the point list of reasons that LEAD me to question:
- I wasn't spiritual. Always felt like there was sort of emotional fakeness with it.
- I wasn't happy. Never really liked mutual, stake dances, scouting, passing the sacrament, collecting fast offerings... any of the responsibilities. I always hated feeling guilty about EVERYTHING. Guilt from God as well as my Mother. Was depressed. Went on my mission, went to BYU... still depressed.
- By age 27... I finally graduate... get out of BYU... take my first job out of school. Still trying to recover my lack of testimony I go to church for 2 months.
# Why I left More stories of 'Why I left' the Mormon church
The big shocker came when I paid $800 in tithing. I felt a weird but dark feeling after handing that envelope to my Bishop. I wanted to know if this is right. Is this is my future life? This is a huge commitment.
I started evaluating my beliefs. I had dabbled a bit into "anti" material before, but not rationally. It was taken for a grain of salt just like every other controversial doctrine. I mean. I had come home from my mission brainwashed as ever. I believed I could prove anyone wrong with their own Bible.
Paying tithing was the breaking point for me because before then I had never really paid that much. I had summer jobs and the such but I was always reliant on my parents and living at home back then.
Within a matter of a few weeks I went from reading the CES Letter to articles on MormonThink.
I was in shock. Wrote a letter to my parents, and then after a few months to the rest of my family. They disagree but thankfully are understanding.
I have a younger married sister who is inactive who I was able to reach out to. I believe we have gotten much closer this year because of it.
I've realized the majority of them could care less about Science, History, Socio-Political issues, or Spiritual Issues. After learning about the psychological effects of religion, church history, controversial doctrine, etc... it became clear to me.
Who wouldn't want to be able to think for themselves... seriously? It's our life. Lets make the best of it. I realized I need to do what makes me happy.
I now find absolutely zero logic in religion. I used to think there was evidence it was true but luckily now I realize it was just all part of the game.
The only thing going for religion or the Mormon church specifically is:
Good feelings that supposedly mean it's true. Logic at its finest right?
A community of imperfect people doing imperfect things who are all brainwashed. Sounds appealing? Hell no.
I'm not totally against religion. But I feel now the same good principles I learned in the church can be easily just as learned outside of it as well. I'm talking about core virtues. Being kind, loving, charitable, etc. Good things aren't just found in some man-made God or church.
You can find some articles I wrote/compiled since exiting here:
- Facts most Mormons don't know about their own religion. (or what Mormons won't tell you): exzacklyright.blogspot.com/2013/10/…
- The Journey To Atheism - Understanding Why Organized Religion Is Harmful and How One Can Become A Free Thinker: exzacklyright.blogspot.com/2013/10/…
- Mormonism Argument - The Prophets Were Just Men! That's why they are imperfect! Jesus Christ and God are perfect: exzacklyright.blogspot.com/2013/10/…
- The Jesus Myth: exzacklyright.blogspot.com/2013/10/…
I'm glad I can now think for myself. Excercise my agency. Learn. Grow. Be more tolerant of the world. I'm the happiest I've ever been. I'm grateful for knowledge and truth.