Hi, I'm Carly
The choice is mine. I was a mormon.
At just 19 years old I became a mother to a perfect little girl. I quickly married the father months before. Being raised in an LDS family my desire was to get married in the temple a year later. I soon realized this was not my spouse’s desire. Finding myself in an abusive relationship I went to my bishop, I went to counselors, and I went to my knees for guidance and safety.
At just 21 years old I became a single mother. I was in a place of self-hatred knowing my mistakes led me to fail the perfect plan. Most crippling was the pain and guilt I felt for disappointing my Heavenly Father.
# Why I left More stories of 'Why I left' the Mormon church
It has been three years since I left my abuser and two since I left the church. During this time I have felt freedom from guilt, anxiety, shame, and judgment. I no longer punish myself for falling short of perfection. With this newfound autonomy, I choose to go wherever I feel love, happiness, and fulfillment. That may be camping on Sunday or it may be having Sunday dinner with loved Mormon friends and family. The choice is mine.