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"I've had periods of silence with family members that lasted literal years. When I've tried to be a support person or help within my family, I've been avoided, I'm certain, because I'm "not a faithful person." I've lost all ability to be of service or even a source of comfort or knowledge, in my family. Not all family members feel this way, but enough that it makes being around them difficult. It's grief and loss, primarily, but also anger and frustration at being judged harshly for doing something that for me, was so personally positive and necessary. I felt like I followed the truth, and my family would have preferred I stayed, dishonestly, in the lie. It's disappointing to see your family as not having the bravery to be people of integrity and honesty, too. I'm not a perfect person, by any means, but the alienation I have received has no explanation other than my leaving the church."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/
"I've had periods of silence with family members that lasted literal years. When I've tried to be a support person or help within my family, I've been avoided, I'm certain, because I'm "not a faithful person." I've lost all ability to be of service or even a source of comfort or knowledge, in my family. Not all family members feel this way, but enough that it makes being around them difficult. It's grief and loss, primarily, but also anger and frustration at being judged harshly for doing something that for me, was so personally positive and necessary. I felt like I followed the truth, and my family would have preferred I stayed, dishonestly, in the lie. It's disappointing to see your family as not having the bravery to be people of integrity and honesty, too. I'm not a perfect person, by any means, but the alienation I have received has no explanation other than my leaving the church."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/
"Leaving a cult can be traumatizing as people lose everything they have and know, but I, fortunately, am VERY happy. I view myself as a human. I'm capable of great good and great stupidity simultaneously, and nobody gets credit for my actions but me, and me alone. The good I do isn't God. It's me. The crap I do isn't Satan. It's the basic human condition, which is beautiful in its variability. Mistakes are not damning. Mistakes are just that, and they're easy to let go of. I no longer walk through a world of strangers, but a world of equals. I didn't know how scared I was of people outside the church until I wasn't afraid anymore, until I saw myself for what I was - truly one of them. The world is full of amazing, AMAZING good people who are happy and free."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/
"Leaving a cult can be traumatizing as people lose everything they have and know, but I, fortunately, am VERY happy. I view myself as a human. I'm capable of great good and great stupidity simultaneously, and nobody gets credit for my actions but me, and me alone. The good I do isn't God. It's me. The crap I do isn't Satan. It's the basic human condition, which is beautiful in its variability. Mistakes are not damning. Mistakes are just that, and they're easy to let go of. I no longer walk through a world of strangers, but a world of equals. I didn't know how scared I was of people outside the church until I wasn't afraid anymore, until I saw myself for what I was - truly one of them. The world is full of amazing, AMAZING good people who are happy and free."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/
"It took me years to stop being "angry" and accept that just LEAVING the church already might actually give me freedom and joy. It was scary. Finally, after years of grumping about EVERYTHING, I discovered I was pregnant with a little girl. My entire family resigned the following week. Somehow I had been able to justify and juggle the thought of raising sons in the church, but discovering that I would have a daughter made me see that future as impossible. My daughter deserved more than I had received. My daughter deserved to see herself as capable of anything. My daughter deserved to have happiness and feel confident and beautiful in all her dreams and ambitions. She deserved to see herself as a force for good. She deserved to see herself as incredibly strong, solely capable, and a leader if she wanted to. She wasn't inherently a temptation, or a "mother" before she'd even had a chance to become a woman. Obviously, leaving Mormonism involved SO MUCH MORE, but for me, it was being damned for being female. Mormonism is damnation to women."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/
"It took me years to stop being "angry" and accept that just LEAVING the church already might actually give me freedom and joy. It was scary. Finally, after years of grumping about EVERYTHING, I discovered I was pregnant with a little girl. My entire family resigned the following week. Somehow I had been able to justify and juggle the thought of raising sons in the church, but discovering that I would have a daughter made me see that future as impossible. My daughter deserved more than I had received. My daughter deserved to see herself as capable of anything. My daughter deserved to have happiness and feel confident and beautiful in all her dreams and ambitions. She deserved to see herself as a force for good. She deserved to see herself as incredibly strong, solely capable, and a leader if she wanted to. She wasn't inherently a temptation, or a "mother" before she'd even had a chance to become a woman. Obviously, leaving Mormonism involved SO MUCH MORE, but for me, it was being damned for being female. Mormonism is damnation to women."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/
"I was a raging feminist who complained about YM/YW activity inconsistencies and attitudes from the beginning. When I went to University I complained about sexism again, and realized how useless I felt as a woman in the church. When I went on a mission, I saw the church as cruel in the way they treated their missionaries and viewed their investigators as numbers. When I got married, I realized God was sexist. It took me YEARS to accept that Mormon God was sexist. Eventually I just convinced myself that that was the church, and it would catch up someday. It took me a couple years of reading history, and knowing the dark truths about Joseph Smith to realize I didn't believe in him, and that being a part of the Mormon community wasn't worth sacrificing my integrity for. It took YEARS. And then it took about one minute."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/
"I was a raging feminist who complained about YM/YW activity inconsistencies and attitudes from the beginning. When I went to University I complained about sexism again, and realized how useless I felt as a woman in the church. When I went on a mission, I saw the church as cruel in the way they treated their missionaries and viewed their investigators as numbers. When I got married, I realized God was sexist. It took me YEARS to accept that Mormon God was sexist. Eventually I just convinced myself that that was the church, and it would catch up someday. It took me a couple years of reading history, and knowing the dark truths about Joseph Smith to realize I didn't believe in him, and that being a part of the Mormon community wasn't worth sacrificing my integrity for. It took YEARS. And then it took about one minute."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/
"For me it was also reading family history records - seeing how my ancestors were AVID treasure diggers, and how they adored Joseph Smith for his work with them - sacrificing the black dog for its blood, etc, in treasure rituals. It was looking at the murders that took place in Missouri, and recognizing that the Mormons were NOT the victims. It was in looking at the murders that happened in Utah, and empathizing with the women who were brought there under the illusion that polygamy didn't actually take place - only to catch them in the practice through their manipulations. I was misled from my earliest childhood to see the Mormons as completely innocent victims."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/
"For me it was also reading family history records - seeing how my ancestors were AVID treasure diggers, and how they adored Joseph Smith for his work with them - sacrificing the black dog for its blood, etc, in treasure rituals. It was looking at the murders that took place in Missouri, and recognizing that the Mormons were NOT the victims. It was in looking at the murders that happened in Utah, and empathizing with the women who were brought there under the illusion that polygamy didn't actually take place - only to catch them in the practice through their manipulations. I was misled from my earliest childhood to see the Mormons as completely innocent victims."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/
"In studying the history of the church, I found so many stories, so many alternate tellings, so many differences from FAITHFUL members, that I realized I had been deliberately misled. It's knowing that there were other First Vision accounts that varied SIGNIFICANTLY from the one traditionally taught. You can't tell me you'd see God the Father AND Jesus Christ and forget to mention it on more than one occasion. The fact that alternate accounts were literally hidden away in a safe by the prophet says they knew they were hiding something faith-shaking. It was in learning about Joseph's MANY adulterous encounters. It was realizing that Joseph being tarred and feathered was only because the doctor had a change of heart last minute and didn't castrate him, for his alleged crimes against another man's sister. It was reading the first-hand accounts from WOMEN who told of their encounters with the prophet, and their introduction to polygamy. It became apparent, to this ex-social worker, that Joseph Smith was a sexual predator, in MANY disturbing cases."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/
"In studying the history of the church, I found so many stories, so many alternate tellings, so many differences from FAITHFUL members, that I realized I had been deliberately misled. It's knowing that there were other First Vision accounts that varied SIGNIFICANTLY from the one traditionally taught. You can't tell me you'd see God the Father AND Jesus Christ and forget to mention it on more than one occasion. The fact that alternate accounts were literally hidden away in a safe by the prophet says they knew they were hiding something faith-shaking. It was in learning about Joseph's MANY adulterous encounters. It was realizing that Joseph being tarred and feathered was only because the doctor had a change of heart last minute and didn't castrate him, for his alleged crimes against another man's sister. It was reading the first-hand accounts from WOMEN who told of their encounters with the prophet, and their introduction to polygamy. It became apparent, to this ex-social worker, that Joseph Smith was a sexual predator, in MANY disturbing cases."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/
"I started an even deeper dive into gender inequality in the church - polygamy, priesthood, abuse, lies, betrayal, etc, etc, ETC, ETC. The doctrine of a Heavenly Mother broke my heart, though it didn't make me leave. I realized that not only did the Church recognize we had a Mother, they simultaneously commanded us not to talk to her, talk ABOUT her, or even tell us more about her. I realized my own divine destiny was like Her own - doomed to silence and playing eternal second fiddle."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/
"I started an even deeper dive into gender inequality in the church - polygamy, priesthood, abuse, lies, betrayal, etc, etc, ETC, ETC. The doctrine of a Heavenly Mother broke my heart, though it didn't make me leave. I realized that not only did the Church recognize we had a Mother, they simultaneously commanded us not to talk to her, talk ABOUT her, or even tell us more about her. I realized my own divine destiny was like Her own - doomed to silence and playing eternal second fiddle."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/
"I was a rigid, rigid judgmental bitch. And I was SO angry. I've always been a strong, opinionated personality, intent on changing the world. I am ready to move mountains single-handedly if necessary. Being Mormon somehow managed to make that energy a bad thing. As a woman, I was "supposed" to be kind, sweet, and loving. I was supposed to make babies and be a homemaker, and I was "supposed" to be happy doing just that. Only that. And that was infuriating. So, this rigid, angry bitch got married, and started having children. Multiple children later, I realized I resented my husband. He had done nothing wrong, but he also had zero religious "ambition." He didn't want to be an apostle or anything! And subsequently, that meant I would never move mountains for my God, which was the most important thing I could ever be asked to do. As his wife, I would never have that opportunity."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/
"I was a rigid, rigid judgmental bitch. And I was SO angry. I've always been a strong, opinionated personality, intent on changing the world. I am ready to move mountains single-handedly if necessary. Being Mormon somehow managed to make that energy a bad thing. As a woman, I was "supposed" to be kind, sweet, and loving. I was supposed to make babies and be a homemaker, and I was "supposed" to be happy doing just that. Only that. And that was infuriating. So, this rigid, angry bitch got married, and started having children. Multiple children later, I realized I resented my husband. He had done nothing wrong, but he also had zero religious "ambition." He didn't want to be an apostle or anything! And subsequently, that meant I would never move mountains for my God, which was the most important thing I could ever be asked to do. As his wife, I would never have that opportunity."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/
"I was born and raised in Salt Lake City, Utah. I was a Laurel President. I refused to date until I was 16. I went to a BYU, served an LDS mission in Toronto Canada, and have only ever kissed one man in my entire life - my husband. I am a mother, a historical sites hunter, a writer, and I was a mormon."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/
"I was born and raised in Salt Lake City, Utah. I was a Laurel President. I refused to date until I was 16. I went to a BYU, served an LDS mission in Toronto Canada, and have only ever kissed one man in my entire life - my husband. I am a mother, a historical sites hunter, a writer, and I was a mormon."- Murphy's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/murphy/
"We went for another year until COVID hit. During that time of at home church my wife was able to really deconstruct enough and we were never really active again. We returned after COVID a couple of times but all the lessons never really resonated with us. We could see it for what it was and stopped attending completely going on three years now." - Alan's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/alan/
"We went for another year until COVID hit. During that time of at home church my wife was able to really deconstruct enough and we were never really active again. We returned after COVID a couple of times but all the lessons never really resonated with us. We could see it for what it was and stopped attending completely going on three years now." - Alan's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/alan/
"In late 2015 I was talking to a fellow soldier during our monthly national guard assignment. He was expressing concern with a new policy excluding children of LGBT members from becoming members. It hadn’t really bothered me prior since no one I knew was affected. He had a family member that had been closeted and married to a female trying to start a family. He came out and got divorced and started a relationship with another man but continued to live the faith as much as possible. When my friend told me the story of how his family member would not be permitted to baptize their children it put a face to the abusive nature of the policy." - Alan's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/alan/
"In late 2015 I was talking to a fellow soldier during our monthly national guard assignment. He was expressing concern with a new policy excluding children of LGBT members from becoming members. It hadn’t really bothered me prior since no one I knew was affected. He had a family member that had been closeted and married to a female trying to start a family. He came out and got divorced and started a relationship with another man but continued to live the faith as much as possible. When my friend told me the story of how his family member would not be permitted to baptize their children it put a face to the abusive nature of the policy." - Alan's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/alan/
"I was born and raised in Las Vegas Nevada. My mom was born with polygamist pioneer heritage and served a mission. My dad was an only child and a convert in his early 20s. I was always active growing up. My mom really pushed me to become an Eagle Scout. I served a mission in Ecuador 2002-2004. I met my wife shortly after returning home and we were married and sealed in the Las Vegas temple in 2005. We have five kids three of which are baptized. I have been serving in the National Guard since 2008 even running a small branch to pass sacrament during our duty weekends. We accepted all our callings and loved identifying as “Mormons”… until we didn’t. I was a Mormon." - Alan's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/alan/
"I was born and raised in Las Vegas Nevada. My mom was born with polygamist pioneer heritage and served a mission. My dad was an only child and a convert in his early 20s. I was always active growing up. My mom really pushed me to become an Eagle Scout. I served a mission in Ecuador 2002-2004. I met my wife shortly after returning home and we were married and sealed in the Las Vegas temple in 2005. We have five kids three of which are baptized. I have been serving in the National Guard since 2008 even running a small branch to pass sacrament during our duty weekends. We accepted all our callings and loved identifying as “Mormons”… until we didn’t. I was a Mormon." - Alan's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/alan/
"That was the beginning of the end of my testimony. I told my wife and she did not take it well. So I continued going and going… for years. I stopped taking callings unless they directly impacted my kids. Primary pianist is easily the best calling in the church. I still went to Elders Quorum but instead of listening to someone read me the manual I would read books on my phone. I never again brought up the loss of faith in the church with my wife." - Alan's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/alan/
"That was the beginning of the end of my testimony. I told my wife and she did not take it well. So I continued going and going… for years. I stopped taking callings unless they directly impacted my kids. Primary pianist is easily the best calling in the church. I still went to Elders Quorum but instead of listening to someone read me the manual I would read books on my phone. I never again brought up the loss of faith in the church with my wife." - Alan's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/alan/
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"I always struggled with the history and lack of proof surrounding the Book of Mormon. I was able to leave that on my shelf waiting for the day that the evidence would be found. I knew a day would come that a bunch of buried swords would be found proving it was all true." - Alan's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/alan/
"I always struggled with the history and lack of proof surrounding the Book of Mormon. I was able to leave that on my shelf waiting for the day that the evidence would be found. I knew a day would come that a bunch of buried swords would be found proving it was all true." - Alan's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/alan/
"At the end of 2018 one of the counselors of the bishopric confronted us to have tithing settlement. I had been avoiding them for years but this time I couldn’t, he already had my wife and kids in the office with the bishop. When the bishop asked if we were full tithe payers my wife said yes. The bishop looked at my statement and saw the $0 my wife freaked out. That night was not pleasant. It was the first time in years we had brought up the problems I had with the church." - Alan's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/alan/
"At the end of 2018 one of the counselors of the bishopric confronted us to have tithing settlement. I had been avoiding them for years but this time I couldn’t, he already had my wife and kids in the office with the bishop. When the bishop asked if we were full tithe payers my wife said yes. The bishop looked at my statement and saw the $0 my wife freaked out. That night was not pleasant. It was the first time in years we had brought up the problems I had with the church." - Alan's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/alan/
I'm happier now than I ever was in the church. As a Mormon, I perpetually felt like I wasn't good enough. My family was often in conflict over how to live the standards of the church and I was passing on the feelings of inadequacy to my children. Now, as an atheist, I'm free from all of that, I am me. I don't need to be someone else. I'm the father of my children and I can choose to teach them what I truly feel is right, not what some old white dude says I should teach them. I can simply focus on my own goals and I can forgive myself of my own mistakes. - Adam's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/adamj/
I'm happier now than I ever was in the church. As a Mormon, I perpetually felt like I wasn't good enough. My family was often in conflict over how to live the standards of the church and I was passing on the feelings of inadequacy to my children. Now, as an atheist, I'm free from all of that, I am me. I don't need to be someone else. I'm the father of my children and I can choose to teach them what I truly feel is right, not what some old white dude says I should teach them. I can simply focus on my own goals and I can forgive myself of my own mistakes. - Adam's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/adamj/
Other things came up over the years. Rumors that the endowment was based on Free Masonry. Questions about whether prayer could change the behavior of an all-knowing, all-powerful God. Non-member friends highlighting the absurdity of the Jaredite barges. Even moments of clarity when I realized my "spiritual experiences" had mundane explanations. These and many others went straight to the shelf. I dismissed them with thought-stoppers and as a result, never felt like I was wavering at all. I thought I had such a firm foundation. - Adam's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/adamj/
Other things came up over the years. Rumors that the endowment was based on Free Masonry. Questions about whether prayer could change the behavior of an all-knowing, all-powerful God. Non-member friends highlighting the absurdity of the Jaredite barges. Even moments of clarity when I realized my "spiritual experiences" had mundane explanations. These and many others went straight to the shelf. I dismissed them with thought-stoppers and as a result, never felt like I was wavering at all. I thought I had such a firm foundation. - Adam's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/adamj/
I couldn't in good conscience continue pretending that it was true. What we were taught in church on Sundays was so drastically different from the history that the church itself had recorded that there was no way to excuse the church. It was readily apparent that the church was intentionally deceiving members and covering up evidence of the truth. So I left. - Adam's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/adamj/
I couldn't in good conscience continue pretending that it was true. What we were taught in church on Sundays was so drastically different from the history that the church itself had recorded that there was no way to excuse the church. It was readily apparent that the church was intentionally deceiving members and covering up evidence of the truth. So I left. - Adam's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/adamj/
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Looking back, I see that many, many items went on my shelf over the years. The first was actually during a conference talk by Gordon B. Hinckley. He explained how we invite members of other faiths to bring the truth they have and add ours to it. I was just a teenager, but I had a rare moment of insight. I envisioned a member of a Christian church being told that they only had part of the truth and that the Mormon's had the rest of it. It occurred to me that they would feel the exact opposite: that *we* were the ones who lacked the full truth. That went straight on the shelf. - Adam's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/adamj/
Looking back, I see that many, many items went on my shelf over the years. The first was actually during a conference talk by Gordon B. Hinckley. He explained how we invite members of other faiths to bring the truth they have and add ours to it. I was just a teenager, but I had a rare moment of insight. I envisioned a member of a Christian church being told that they only had part of the truth and that the Mormon's had the rest of it. It occurred to me that they would feel the exact opposite: that *we* were the ones who lacked the full truth. That went straight on the shelf. - Adam's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/adamj/
The Book of Mormon matches the KJV much more closely than it does any older writings. In fact, the BOM contains text that was written long after 600 BC. I panicked and tried to rationalize this away. Every avenue I thought would help turned out to hurt more. Everything I researched about church history, Joseph's translation process, the testimonies of the witnesses, and so on turned out to point in the opposite direction. After about a month of digging through all the information I could find (from reliable sources only!) I had no choice but to leave the church. - Adam's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/adamj/
The Book of Mormon matches the KJV much more closely than it does any older writings. In fact, the BOM contains text that was written long after 600 BC. I panicked and tried to rationalize this away. Every avenue I thought would help turned out to hurt more. Everything I researched about church history, Joseph's translation process, the testimonies of the witnesses, and so on turned out to point in the opposite direction. After about a month of digging through all the information I could find (from reliable sources only!) I had no choice but to leave the church. - Adam's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/adamj/
The thing that brought everything crashing down was actually an attempt at apologetics. In a classic evening of wiki wandering, I read about ancient Egypt and Israel, including a page about the Dead Sea Scrolls. I realized that we have a complete copy of Isaiah from ~150 BC. In my mind, this copy of Isaiah should have matched the Book of Mormon Isaiah chapters much more closely than the King James Version of the Bible does. I thought I would be able to use this to prove that the Book of Mormon was true. However, upon researching, I learned the exact opposite. - Adam's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/adamj/
The thing that brought everything crashing down was actually an attempt at apologetics. In a classic evening of wiki wandering, I read about ancient Egypt and Israel, including a page about the Dead Sea Scrolls. I realized that we have a complete copy of Isaiah from ~150 BC. In my mind, this copy of Isaiah should have matched the Book of Mormon Isaiah chapters much more closely than the King James Version of the Bible does. I thought I would be able to use this to prove that the Book of Mormon was true. However, upon researching, I learned the exact opposite. - Adam's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/adamj/
I was 100% in the church. I didn't doubt or question. I was obedient and faithful to the things I had been taught. I believed I had a firm testimony and had experienced many spiritual experiences to confirm that testimony. By the time I was 30 years old, I think I'd missed church fewer than 5 times in my life. At one point, we realized we'd missed paying tithing on a few paychecks, so we sold our couch, bedframe, TV stand, and keyboard (piano) in order to make the payment. - Adam's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/adamj/
I was 100% in the church. I didn't doubt or question. I was obedient and faithful to the things I had been taught. I believed I had a firm testimony and had experienced many spiritual experiences to confirm that testimony. By the time I was 30 years old, I think I'd missed church fewer than 5 times in my life. At one point, we realized we'd missed paying tithing on a few paychecks, so we sold our couch, bedframe, TV stand, and keyboard (piano) in order to make the payment. - Adam's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/adamj/
My life finally feels REAL. When I'm sad, I don't need to pretend that some supernatural being is making me feel differently. When I succeed, I don't need to attribute my success to a deity to avoid being prideful. When I'm upset, I can evaluate the true causes of my emotions, rather than being afraid that Satan is attacking me. My life is mine, and it's logical, rational, and real. I love it. - Adam's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/adamj/
My life finally feels REAL. When I'm sad, I don't need to pretend that some supernatural being is making me feel differently. When I succeed, I don't need to attribute my success to a deity to avoid being prideful. When I'm upset, I can evaluate the true causes of my emotions, rather than being afraid that Satan is attacking me. My life is mine, and it's logical, rational, and real. I love it. - Adam's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/adamj/
I'm a software developer who loves learning. I was raised in a very strict Mormon home. Among my siblings, I considered myself the most obedient. I never skipped. I didn't drink caffeine. I completed 4 years of seminary, went to BYU, served a mission, and got married in the temple. I was a Mormon. - Adam's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/adamj/
I'm a software developer who loves learning. I was raised in a very strict Mormon home. Among my siblings, I considered myself the most obedient. I never skipped. I didn't drink caffeine. I completed 4 years of seminary, went to BYU, served a mission, and got married in the temple. I was a Mormon. - Adam's "I was a Mormon" story. Read more at https://wasmormon.org/profile/adamj/