I was an overly devoted mormon throughout my life. I was a homeschooling mother to four children who are all grown now. A completely devoted mother and wife, and an entrepreneur for the past 15 years. I was a mormon.
My shelf really broke over the last ten years because my gifts of mysticism were magnifying. Nothing I was seeing was matching what was happening in the church. I so was sick and tired of being around people who did not think for themsleves.
There was an underlining current when I began homeschooling our children. Ward members and leaders had beliefs that homeschooling was absolutely wrong!
I was a mormon. The testable truth claims that need to be true for the Book of Mormon to be true are not true. A study of history and science wins out.
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How many mormons does it take to change a light bulb? Two, One to change it and one to say nothing was changed.
My daughter was on a mission and watching her suffer was one of the catalysts to start questioning everything I thought I knew was true. I left the church while my daughter was serving a mission. I was a mormon.
For the next 10 months I tried to make sense of it all. I felt so lost and broken and lonely and angry.
My 16 year old son came out as gay. We celebrated and loved him but he came home from church in tears most Sundays. We told him he was perfect exactly how he was but at church he heard that in God's eyes, he was not.
My daughter was the first person in our families to ever serve a mission. She'd chosen to serve a mission so she could teach people that they were loved by god and to serve people. She was quickly learning in the MTC that the mission was much more about rules and obedience and judgement and numbers. She was sure that once she got out into the mission field that everything would be different but it wasn't.
I knew in my heart that I had tried everything to make the church work for me and it was now time to let it go. So I did.
I'd been serving in the stake yw for 2 years and the frustration and anger had been building because of the lack of representation and the inequality I saw at that level of leadership.
I don't know what I believe about diety (and I am a-ok with that) but I won't be a part of organized religion again. I find spirituality in nature and within myself and with those I love.
In desperation, I attended a woman's retreat in Wyoming. I went alone and didn't know anyone. One night, a woman was talking and she said the words that would change my life. "If you are carrying something and it's hurting you, you can let it go. I am giving you permission to let it go." Let it go? I could do that?
My mom's patriarchal blessing said she would live to see her children grow to adulthood if she was faithful. She was very faithful and she died from cancer when I was 17 and my sisters were 14, 12 and 10. I was told God needed her but so did we. My heart was broken and could only be kept together if I could be with her again so I remained faithful.
My daughter was on a mission and watching her suffer was one of the catalysts to start questioning everything I thought I knew was true. I left the church while my daughter was serving a mission. I was a mormon.
"We know that they had a table like this. We know they had the golden plates, covered usually. And Joseph used these: the Urim and Thummim, seer stones, in the hat. And it was easier for him to see the light when he'd, uh, take that position." Russell M Nelson, LDS Church President awkwardly gaslights everyone about Joseph Smiths translation process including looking at a rock in his hat.
"To me, it's like having my mobile phone in my hand. And I can get messages on it that you can't see. And they had nothing like that, so it's just the gift and power of God how he was able to do that in that period of time." Russell M Nelson, LDS Church President compares Joseph Smith's peep stones to his own cell phone text messages.